Sunday Sunday

I hate Sundays.

I had lots of things planned today. Creative things. I haven't done any of them.

This date 3 years ago I was moving in with Alan. I was so happy.


It seems so strange to think that we were only together such a short time but the bond we had was so incredibly strong. I feel like someone has cut one of my arms off. I miss his lovely smile and his gorgeous blue eyes.


I feel like I have reached a strange kind of cross roads and have no idea which way to turn at the moment.

My brain is too full of stuff going round and round and round.

Colours

I was wondering where I got the colour ideas from for my latest crochet project then I saw the towels in my bathroom - subliminal advertising!!!

What do you think?

Weather and Eggs.......

Hello all,

Blimey the weather is very blowy today. I went for a walk this morning and it was very bracing to say the least!!

Here are some pics I took on my walk....



It is amazingly windy and the sash windows are rattling like mad. Goodness knows what it's like in Hastings at the moment - the wind there is pretty bad all year round!

Anyway - I enjoyed my somewhat bracing walk and then got the urge for a boiled egg. Alan has this fantastic gadget for doing boiled eggs exactly right. I think it's German, and must be from the 70's or early 80's because it's orange and brown ha ha ha!


You take the lid off and get the little measuring cup out. Then look round the side and you can see Soft, Medium or Hard and how many eggs you want to cook. Fill up with water to the correct level and then pour in the bottom of the cooker.

You then prick the egg with the little widget inside, place the eggs in the holder, replace the lid and switch it on. When the eggs are done the timer goes off. It's brilliant!!

Et Voila! Perfectly done soft boiled eggs with toasty soldiers - Mmmmm.

I am still trying to sort out my sewing room and the house generally. I have decided that I just have too much stuff. I have been uming and aarhing (is that how you spell it??) about these little fellers but have decided to let them go:

I've got them up on eBay at the moment - here - along with some other bits.

My next decision is whether to let my Chaise Longue go. I covered it in some fantastic GP&J Baker fabric but to be honest I just don't have the space. It'll be a wrench but I need to be practical. It's not all finished off perfectly inside and I am not a professional upholsterer but it is very beautiful.

It looked brilliant in my old house but this place is too small and the space it takes up would be better served with some drawers.

The pics below show it in the living room at my old place in Hastings. These are the Estate Agents pics. The landlord couldn't believe it was his house when he saw how nice I made it look with all my stuff - well that is a compliment I guess.

The other thing I am thinking of getting rid of is the dark carved sideboard. You can see it in the bottom picture. Again, there is just no room for it in here. I bought it with me from Castle House where I lived with Alan, so it has memories but it just doesn't fit anywhere. I can hear Alan saying to me 'It's just a bit of bloody furniture', and perhaps he is right.


Anyway, the wind is actually getting a bit scarey now and I have just noticed that my neighbours palm tree has snapped in half and the top bit has blown into my garden. What a shame - it was about 9 feet tall so must have taken an age to grow. I'd better go and see if it can be saved as a stump?

Bye Bye. Enjoy your day.

Crochet, Update and House

A big update and some photos - I'm not the best photographer but I have done my best. The last couple of weeks have been tough and I still keep thinking that I would be on my honeymoon right now. We didn't really discuss where we would go, but I think we would have either gone up to the Highlands in a cosy cottage or we would have gone to Sweden. In fact, probably Sweden as we'd had such a good time there together. We loved Ahus and Ystad.

Anyway, it's been a bit of a rollercoaster and so busy but here is an update of what I've been up to, mundane and creative.




This is my crochet which is coming along nicely. It's getting quite big and I like the colours. I have started another one though as well - I always have to have 9000 things on the go at once......

Today I have been trying to sort out my sewing room. I've done reasonably well but need a cupboard moving so am waiting for my friend to come and give me a hand. I just find it so exhausting!!

The rest of the house is coming along OK though, but I still seem to be moving things from one room to another all the time because of the lack of space. It is a nice house though. It's only rented but I still like to have nice surroundings and look after the place.

Here are some photos:This is the living room. The orchids came from the local market - £1!!

This is the hallway, I painted the pine shelves in Dove Gray eggshell. The little statue on the top with the blue bird was a 40th birthday present from a friend. The pic on the wall, I drew myself, well copied from a drawing by Duncan Grant one of the Bloomsbury set.

This is an original water colour from Claire Fletcher. I have never ever in my life paid as much for anything but I bought this with my Christmas bonus as a present for Alan. He had pointed it out and said that he liked the sly smile on her face. He always liked the 'Pin-up' girl style so I can see why he liked it. It's hanging in the bathroom.

This is my knitting needle pot. I love my cherry wood handmade needles. I saved up for them and treated myself. They are so nice to use.

Alan bought me this for my 40th, I love it. It's by Laura McCafferty. We bought it for £45 last year and her pictures seem to sell for around £300 these days - it's incredible!!!! I certainly couldn't afford one now. It's hanging in my creative room (I call it that - basically it's the smallest box room ever and is only good for storage with just enough space for a chair for me to sit and look at craft books to knit.

The only other thing that has happened is my friends Halloween party - it was a week early as she was working on Halloween - but I went as an evil nun. I was quite pleased with the end result. The first pic is me just getting the make-up finished.


In a couple of weeks I am taking part in an Open House but I have not had any time to make anything as yet. I have some stuff but to be honest this years been a bit of a wash out for anything creative.

Blimey - what a bumper update that was. I am sitting here now watching The Mighty Boosh on DVD as there is sod all on telly. Think I'll have a whisky and a bowl of crisps to go with that.

Moving again........

Hello all,

I've decided to go back to using my original blog again, sorry for the confusion......

Anyway, thought I would put up some pics for you. The first one is a pic of a corner of my living room. The second one is the doll that Barb made for me on the shelf. She makes fabulous dolls.


Will post some more later. Been a crap week x 1 million.

Life eh?

Well folks. This Saturday - 31st October 2010 would have been my Wedding Day.

I would have been so happy to have married Alan. He was truly one in a million. Nothing would have made me happier.

I keep thinking about it and this week so far has been pretty terrible.

I've never wanted to marry anyone until Alan, and I just knew that he was the person I wanted to be with. He was just wonderful - there is nothing I didn't completely love about him.

He was funny, clever, creative, talented, thoughtful, kind, gorgeous looking and incredibly sexy, and he could put shelves up and fix stuff. He was strong, protective and vulnerable all at the same time. He was sensitive, perceptive and unselfish in every way. I would have been so proud to be his wife.

To be honest I feel bloody awful. I've been pretty crappy at work, not concentrating and being very forgetful. They are all so wonderful and kind to me but I worry so much that I will be asked to leave if this carries on. I think I am probably just blowing it up out of proportion but I can't help but think that.

I feel isolated and alone, I have such lovely friends but no-one really understands how I feel inside.

I suppose on a positive note I can say that this is the last big hurdle I have to get over, after this it's birthdays, anniversarys and special days which I have been told get easier with time.

I am sorry for the depressing post but I feel so very low at the moment. I just don't know how I keep going to be honest.

Me Again.....

No posts for months and then about 1000 in a day!

I just had to post this picture of Alexander Skarsgard from True Blood. I watched season 1 on FX but now it's being shown on Channel 4 so I am watching it all over again.

Alexander plays the vampire 'Eric' (it's all very tongue in cheek) and is basically all my favourite things rolled into one - Vampire, Swedish, Viking.....come on! It's like a dream come true..... and he speaks Swedish in it as well - BLIMEY!

What's not to like?